Sara's CJD journey

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

A Glass of Cranberry Juice



A simple thing happened today. Mom drank a glass of juice on her own.


Mom's been unable to tell her hands to do what she wants them to do, but today she reached-out and grabbed the juice on her own. Virginia was impressed:



Menembre was impressed as well:
I was impressed and inspired. The simple glass of cranberry juice brought me so much joy today.

It was yet another glorious Seattle summer day, so after dinner we went for a stroll around the neighborhood.


We found a "pocket park", a city lot-sized park that had been a garden and donated to the city. Mom loves this kind of civic altruism. What an awesome day it was today.




Monday, June 29, 2009

A Straw Sun Hat and a Cool Breeze on a Warm Sunny Day

Sara slept well last night for the first time in weeks. Yesterday we had a crab boil dinner party at 'Mom's Place' with some of Sara's favorite foods, a little wine and a few of Dave and Nancy's friends. Having been told to "make yourself at home" we've moved over our barbeque ensemble, our taste for fine dining and our appetite for festive gathering. We've moved in, in spirit. We found an electrical outlet near the water fountain and plugged-in Mom's boom-box, and cranked-out the Sweet Adelines music and Mom sang along. It's so wonderful that she can recall her musicality- lyrics and all! Dave boiled 5 Dungeness Crab that he caught with his credit card at the seafood market and barbequed six chicken breasts. Mom's spirits were high! She slept well last night and today was another glorious day.

It was since Mom had moved to the North Coast of Oregon that we became seafood afficianatos, in fact- The first crab we had ever caught was right off the bridge in Seaside Oregon.
See the yellowish-tint to the crab water? That's 1/3 cheap white wine by volume! The crabs cook up so much more sweet, and their shells fall right-off.


Good food and music are some of Mom's favorite things! We're so fortunate to be able to share these treasures with Sara. We love you. Mom.


















Friday, June 19, 2009



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Chloe, Porter, Nancy, Sara

Photos


Sara's Private Bedroom
Dave and Sara

Sara and Nancy




                                                   Evergreen Adult Family Home

                            Sara watering her new tomato plant

Evergreen Adult Family Home- Sara's new home.

Sara's new residence, the Evergreen Family Home.


The Activities' Director arrainged to have Mom plant some tomato starts on her second day. Here she's watering them













                                          Sara's first day at Evergreen Adult Family Home 6/9/09

June 19th, 2009 Family and Friends Visiting

We are so grateful to all of you who have sent cards, inquiries, and visited Sara these past weeks. Sara really enjoys company and we welcome you all to come and visit. A special appreciation to friends and family who have traveled from the east coast to be with Sara, it means so much to us.

If you need a place to stay, a few recent friends and family have stayed at the Hotel Nexus on Northgate Way,  not far from Sara's new residence.

Monday, June 15, 2009

Days like this…

The case manager at OHSU said that there would be something to enjoy about mom every step of the way. At the time I couldn’t imagine finding any joy in this disease, as I watch it ripping her away. I think I may even have rolled my eyes when she said it. I didn’t, COULDN’T believe her. I go there every day and spend time with her, just being with her, not expecting much. I tell her stories about my kids, stories about growing up, even stuff I never told her (like when a boyfriend and I broke into a boat house… stuff moms don’t need to know, really)… but I don’t expect her nowadays to respond with anything other than “mmm”s and “oooo”s, clearly not really with me in the conversation. I leave there every time sad and angry about what this disease is doing to the mother I love so very much. But not today. Today I found lots to enjoy about being in her presence.

Her long time friends Pam, Mary and Glenn have been hanging around entertaining her (and putting her to bed!) for the past few days. They have been so caring and wonderful to her, and I so very much appreciate the love they show her. Another long time friend, Rhonda, came today to visit. When I arrived today I walked into a party of friends who are so comfortable with one another from the trials of decades of friendship. As I sat down, I instantly realized that mom was really with it! She clearly was enjoying the party as much as everyone else! She was laughing appropriately at all of the stories and even sharing her own thoughts (mostly disjointed, but some were completely right on). Today it was, for the first time in weeks, clear she wasn’t worse than she was yesterday. I left with a smile on my face for the first time in so long. Ahhhh, such a nice feeling.

I know a lot of you come to check on this page frequently looking for updates, and I’m relieved to be able to post this upbeat update instead of the updates I’ve been avoiding posting for a week.

SARA"S ADDRESS

If you would like to send cards we will hand deliver and read them to Sara:
PO Box 17859
Seattle WA 98127

Saturday, June 13, 2009

A picture from last summer by her friend Norma


Just wanted to share a picture her friend Norma sent from last summer. If anyone has a favorite picture, I'd love to share it as well!


Friday, June 12, 2009

Thanks for the comments

I want to thank all of your for you comments and memories of my mom. It helps me tremendously to know you are all out there sending her loving thoughts. 

I know I promised an update when she arrived on Tuesday, but I haven't been able to bring myself to type what we've been going through. I'll try tonight to get it out, but I'll summarize by saying that she wasn't thrilled to be here and she's losing more and more function daily. 

Check back tomorrow for the update. Hopefully I'll be able to make some words come that aren't as sad as they are in my head now.

Monday, June 8, 2009

Getting her room ready

Nancy and Aaron (my husband) and I took her stuff to her room this morning in preparation for her arrival tomorrow. We had planned on bringing her there today, but her social calendar was full down in Seaside up until today. I'm not surprised, but I am amazed at how many people she has touched down there in the relatively short 5 years she lived there. It's so much fun to hear her laugh with the people who come to visit - she may not be completely there, but she's there enough to enjoy a good joke! On Saturday my brother was reading to mom and I out of a Dave Barry book and she was giggling at all of the funny parts. Yep, that's mom :).

Selecting the stuff to bring to her new home didn't require too much thought. The room is about 10' x 12', so we knew we'd be able to fit seating and a bookcase in addition to her bed. The hard part was setting up her belongings in a strange place with the thought of her being there for however long she has left (uuuggg - I hate typing that. Somewhere in the back of my head I hear screaming: "She's going to recover, and isn't she going to be PISSED when she finds out you moved her stuff").  

Okay, that was my brief update - I'll update tomorrow after we get her settled. I want to thank *everyone* who has reached out to her and to my brother and I offering love and support. It means so much to me that my mother's circle is so large and that she's touched so many people. 

Sunday, June 7, 2009

Wrong on the dates...

Thanks so much to Nancy (my sister-in-law) and Dave, I know now that I have my dates off by about 2 or 3 weeks. She actually called my brother the first week of MAY! I'll edit the original post to reflect this (later), but it means that 1) the past 5 weeks have seemed more like 2 months and 2) this disease is moving faster than I was portraying. *sigh*

Friday, June 5, 2009

The journey so far

My name is Sonia and I am Sara's daughter. My mother has been sick for a very short time. My intention is to give the details from the start of what we’ve seen to the present and then update when things change.

First week of May: Mom called my brother, Dave, in a panic saying that she couldn’t find her car… in her driveway. It worried him enough that he went down to check on her. It was obvious to him then (and to me on the phone) that she was having what we all thought were memory loss episodes similar to Alzheimer's disease, roughly stage 3. It was clear when he went down there then that she needed help, as she wasn’t remembering to feed herself and was having problems finding her way around her house. She was coherent, but not all of the time. She started having visual anomalies in the form of tracers of colors around that time as well, but she was chalking that up to new glasses. She had no problem with knowing who her children or friends were, but did not remember all of the things that had happened during the day. She was describing how she was feeling as “foggy”.

Second week of May:  In the short time of about a week her cognitive state started to decline so rapidly that I took her to the emergency room in her small coastal town of Seaside, Oregon. They ran basic diagnostics consisting of a mini mental exam (or, really, a mini mini mental exam), a CT scan (to look for bleeding) and a blood and urine screen. They suspected stroke but found “nothing” (to quote the ER doctor). Since she had an appointment with a GP the next week, and her mental state wasn’t terrible enough to admit her to the hospital (well, and she hadn’t had a stroke), he released her with the advisement not to drive and to have family close by to help her. He also called the GP and updated her so she’d have the information when the appointment time came.

Third week of May:  During the appointment the GP gave her a longer mini mental exam, ordered a chest x-ray (not sure why) and told us that she would be referring her to the University of Washington Medical Center as soon as possible for more testing (since both Dave and I live in or near Seattle, we wanted to have her there with us). The GP mentioned during the visit that she suspected it might be Alzheimer’s (note: although Alz is a unique as the patient, NOTHING I found in any Alz literature indicating that the disease could progress as rapidly as it was appearing to progress with her, so I wasn’t completely satisfied with her suspicion). At this time mom’s confusion was growing dramatically, and her short term memory was very sketchy. We worried very much about her wandering away from the house since she was so confused about getting where she wanted to be in her house and was sometimes going outside to find her bedroom, the bathroom or the kitchen. She also at this time was having a little trouble being steady on her feet. Not much, but she seemed to need to walk a little slower than normal and I noticed that she was holding on to things while standing still. She couldn’t sign her name – well, she got her first name but then was having a lot of trouble remember what letters were in her last name and how to physically write them.

May 21st:  Her GP orders an MRI. The test is easy, according to mom, and we await the results. She verbalizes that she is feeling more and more “foggy”. They call the next day and schedule ANOTHER MRI for the following week.  Since the hospital in Seaside is a small hospital, they don’t have a resident MRI machine (it is driven in from Portland for 2 days a week), we have to wait this long. They said they needed another one to make sure that she hadn’t moved during the MRI.

Memorial day:  My brother called from Seaside, where he’d been staying with her pretty much without a break since the beginning of the month, and he and mom told me that she was feeling even more disoriented, evidenced by trying to show her nephew around her house and not being able to come up with the words for the rooms. I suggested they go back to the ER, since when I took her they said to come back if it gets worse. I also thought that they would be able to read the MRI results, since nobody had given us the results from the first one. The visit to the ER was short – they looked through her chart and explained what the radiographer had written in the chart: there were a couple of possible reasons for the bright spots seen in her frontal lobes, most likely among them Creutzfeldt–Jakob disease (CJD). CJD is a degenerative neurological disorder that is very rare, incurable, and invariably fatal. Dave is in shock and disbelief, mom is just in disbelief. He calls me, and I am likewise in shock and disbelief.

May 27th: This is the day of her second scheduled MRI. We had gotten advice from several people, including her GP, that going to the Oregon Health and Sciences University (OHSU) hospital ER in Portland would get us a quicker path to a neurologist, as we were having a problem getting a neurologist to schedule an appointment within the week. Why this was so troublesome is that the progression of her symptoms was so rapid and we were seeing dramatic changes daily. We wanted them to find her a diagnosis and cure before whatever was wrong took over (still in disbelief about the CJD diagnosis). By this time she had a shuffling gate, was “out of it” most of the time with stretches of clarity that only last a few hours at a time, and used words that were inappropriate to the conversation pretty consistently. After the MRI we took her directly to the ER at OHSU. This is a real ER in a big city with big, real emergency medical problems. Because of this we started to get a little nervous that it would take a long time to see us, and that once they saw us that they would send us away and tell us to wait for a neurology appointment. Luckily that didn’t happen.

We brought all of her medical information with us, including both MRIs, for the new crew of doctors to look at. They asked the same mini mental exam questions that the other doctors had, and it was clear that mom had lost more cognition since the last exam. She had a problem remembering her full name, for example, whereas the week before she could. We spent a few hours in the ER and thankfully they didn’t want to just send us home, but instead had their on-call neurologist come in. We were SO excited that we were finally getting the attention we needed. The neurologist tested her with a much longer mini mental exam than she had been having, as well as physical challenges to test her balance and strength. After these tests and after he reviewed her MRI and medical information, the neurologist admitted her, and told us he wanted to make sure that the neurology team at the hospital did every test possible to rule out some of the more simple explanations for what was happening, as well as try to rule out CJD.

The hospital stay was brutal on everyone. We took turns sleeping in her room with her. Some nights were better than others, some days better than others, but she was clearly getting worse each day of the 7 day stay. There was a team of neurologists, there was a team of therapists (cognitive, speech/language and physical), and endless rounds of nurses and nursing assistants. All of the doctors asked her the same questions every day, and it made her angry every time she got the questions wrong (which she was doing with more and more frequency). They gave her a full body CT because they said sometimes cancer somewhere in the body can make the brain do what her brain was doing. They took more blood. They gave her an EEG. They gave her a spinal tap (aka lumbar puncture or LP). All of the tests so far have come back inconclusive for any disease, but unfortunately the nature of CJD is that a positive diagnosis is not really possible without a brain biopsy or, worse yet, an autopsy. Every day, though, the team of professionals told us it is most likely CJD and that there’s really nothing they can do for her. There is no cure nor is there a treatment for this horrible disease. They wanted to make sure that she wasn’t being sent home to be by herself (duh) and helped us greatly in figuring out what our next steps were.

Latest information:  We have found her a residential care facility in Seattle that is lovely (relative to a nursing home, that is). The house is designed / architected for dementia residents and is therefore a very safe place for mom to be so we don’t need to worry about her wandering away at any time. The staff seems to really love what they’re doing and love the residents. We’re planning on taking her there on Monday, June 8th.

What you can do:  If you can, visit her. Expect to only stay with her for a few hours at most, but know that even if she’s not engaging with you in an expected way, we believe having friends and family around really does make a difference. Please do talk about your memories of things you’ve done together and share with her how much you love her, but please do NOT mention her disease.  If you want directions to her new place, send her an email as I check it daily.